A Migraineur’s Eyesight is Affected Internally, Producing Hallucinations

To be honest, I'm in total ruins. The barometric pressure is repressive & worsening every day. Today was the Gawd-awful - IS. More thunder is roving my way. BUT even when the storms are afar, the pressure has gotten me. August is officially my most hated month. It's always bad.

Before K@trina, I hadn't even taken a walk really around the woods in 2 weeks, then suddenly that hurricane was upon us & all changed forevermore.

I really had some weird hallucinations occur when on my dusky wander. At one point, I wasn't sure if I could get back. THIS is why I don't do drugs anymore & won't DO pot to counter this, because I already have too many unrestrained, compromised moments when things become psychedelic.

Like the morning a couple days back, before dawn, looking at the nearly full moon & it suddenly exploded. I mean the whole Death Star thing erupting & vanishing. Then it was back, but pulsating, the sky was in on it too as were the treetops. This is migraine related.

On a walk the other day, I looked up to watch a scattered flock of small birds heading westerly overhead & everything exploded in pain & shapes & colors. Check patterns, zigzags, curls, & waves. The most dramatic hue was an electric purple. I was truly alongside Lucy & her sky of diamonds & many other things.

My eyes & face feel like they have been burned. My head feels too heavy for my neck. Other aches gain in my shoulders & torment my spine.

I feel like I should open the vacuum-lock on the portside & allow myself to get sucked out into space without any gear on...

Maybe not.

BUT at least I've read Oliver Sacks' Hallucination & know all these things are physiological, not in my mind, so I can take them as an objective observer instead as a subjective victim.

This is day 7 of such gaining disaster...

("Visual Disturbance" Art by Joyce Ryan, Migraine Masterpieces 2003 - Nat'l Headache Foundation)